Writers block - Taking stock

This post is for me. My girl friend asked me why I write and though deep down I knew it, realization punched me hard when my mind threw the answer - appreciation. I knew from when I was really small I loved being in the limelight in my own way - I hated open praise and things, but being appreciated for something well done gave me my high.

And that's the reason for my writers block. Every time I sit down to write I start thinking the following irrespective of how good the idea for the blog is or how long it is or anything actually about the blog :-

1. Why bother, nobody wants to read all this stuff anyways
2. The post wont be good - its will be too common, the idea is a done to death one etc
3. It wont be as good as the super star bloggers Mr Vadukut or Mr Ghosh - they have their own books and it's their blogs with which I compare mine!!! The horror!!
4. This anyway is not going to lead me anywhere. It is just an account of my life incidents taken from here and there and shared.

And then I started browsing blogs simply this morning to pass time. I was so busy from not doing any work at office that I wanted a diversion and so blogs... I came across a blog by a Thai woman about her trip to Malaysia. I saw her hometown through her eyes, its splendor, its beauty.

And that's what a blog is about.

Its about sharing a fragment of your life with the universe. Its a very funny combination. The age old need for man to bond with the universe fulfilled by the latest technology enabled service, blogging. Its this need that one tries to achieve by logging in to FB everyday.

But hey then - Mr Zuckerberg was a genius in understanding the human race's addiction to appreciation and so he added the like button. So its not just me, everybody is somehow looking for appreciation always.

Maybe it's those who overcame this need and did what they wanted just for themselves became big in their respective fields. Take the example of Oscar Wilde, died in poverty. George Orwell - struggled hard to make it big and the only thing common here - they wrote in spite of all the odds, because it was their world of solace. It was the only thing they enjoyed doing.

Anyway bringing back my wandering mind to this page and its writer. It has a little more sense of why it wants to write now, though hoping it gets a few comments and shares... And there we go again...

Writing,now thats easy,finding the topic is what is hard!! ;)

Here I am at it once again. Trying my hand at writing. First I thought I would write about something that inspired me. I had to drop it firstly because there is too much of that online and secondly I sometimes get inspired by the not so inspiring stuff. Hard enough to keep you readers engaged with unique enough content - this would become your lullaby blog with that stuff.

So alright so then I'll write fiction - but imagination eludes me like I elude the workplace! No success there.

Then what about an autobiography I thought - I know, I laughed when I thought it too..

And in the middle of all this serious thinking, I wonder why I even want to write in the first place. Why else - fame and fortune of-course... It seems so important - signing books, giving these interviews and more importantly giving global gyaan simply because people will listen, since I now will have a book of my own now- ha ha ha.

And the best part is that fame from writing associates one with intelligence! Camouflage of the best sort.

Anyways back from the fantasy - what else can I write about that will make me the next JK Rowling or Salman Rushdie or Dan Brown.

Going by those lines maybe I should write about the Indian sorcerer boy Hari Pattar or a scathing controversial book on Hinduism titled Midday's Grownups or a historical myth based thriller called Chankaya's lungi!

Hmm brilliant ideas - but that would limit me to Indian readers. I need something that will get me readers all around the world - and maybe even martian fans who in all probability love reading our version of the universe!

Besides, these books would ensure I get sued for IP rights violation or exiled form India for life or even worse, attract debate from "intellectuals" on Chankaya - that would be a killer.

Hey, speaking of martians, maybe I should write about extra terrestrial life forms. I'm sure I would have a lot of buyers for that - our average day is filled with no suspense or fun, just the drab old comfortable life filled with comfort and luxury - this book would fill this void!!!

But then I would need research to be done for that - that means work - nope, no way that is happening.Not worth all that fame. I always feel proud of my ability to set my priorities straight.

Ok maybe I will write a romantic novel based on my love life - The book would be "I fell for her, I was happy, she fell for somebody else. I was sad.... No, its not an error. That's all there is to it, dont search for the remaining part because there isn't one.

Hmmm. This isnt working. I just don't know what to write about! May be Ill just settle down writing a cook book based on my moms cooking - ha that's it!!! And it shall be called "Cooked with love, served with care and appreciated with awe(by me of course)"!!!