Take wing - Fly

One upmanship. Beating one another at being better stooges. Suck it all up and toil, work your balls off. Sacrifice your time you could have spent making relationships work, time that could have been spent having the experiences that would have mattered. Work to get that carrot dangling in front of you - only problem is that you like radishes better and you are the poor soul that is not even given a chance to think what it is that you really like.

Loading your head with others successes and then trying to make them your own - giving all your effort and time and when the limited time you had on this wonderful planet is over, regretting that you had not done all that. Wishing you had the nerve to just think about what would have made you feel alive and not dead even when alive.

Hoping that you had more time, wishing that you had a friend/partner who could have pushed you over that edge so that you took wing and flew. Wimping out on every thing that you knew you had to do, but decided that staying on that cliff was safer, watching the few that decide to take the leap and soar, some immediately and some eventually.

Some do not soar, but they come back to the cliff and try it all over again. You hear the small voice in your head saying - "Hey, I can do that, I can do it even better than these fellas can dream it". But no the "commitments" beckon, the comparison syndrome sets in, this success is not success in the eyes of my neighbor, this "success" is not what society wants.

That writer in you, that psychology expert, that biologist, the artist, the actor;they peek out every now and then, especially when you see successful ones and think - what would have happened if I had leaped off that cliff, when I had little to lose? When your poor soul wants to jump out and follow those butterflies, see where they are headed, but the burden you carry now is too heavy to skip and hop and keep up.

Dark and ominous are these thoughts. Darker they will be when you go through them. When you know you could have been that guy on TV talking about how he started his firm in the garage, the guy who just found a new species of frog in the Amazon; when reality hits you hard saying -"I offered you the chance too, you didn't take it you idiot! You were after things that were not your choice but somebody else's. You have got those things now and still feel empty?"

"Well then, go to the edge my friend, close your eyes, think of nothing else, feel the wind against your face, think of the fun you are going to have and leap! Take the chance when you can afford it."